Just To Let You Know.
I hate not talking to you when that's the thing i wanna do the most; talk.
I hate the fact that there's always this weird silence when i walk into a room you're in.
I hate that you're not there for me anymore.
I hate that you don't care.
I hate not having those hugs and kisses that we normally give each other.
I hate that when i tell you something, you get angry at me but when someone else says it, you just laugh it off.
I hate not spending time with each other.
I hate seeing you give the love and protected feeling you used to give me to someone else and having to watch it.
I hate that you always walk away so fast, leaving me behind.
I hate not knowing why we grew further apart.
And I hate having to go through this all the time, practically non-stop.
I hate it all so much i thought of taking my life for it.
But you know i definitely can't. I just couldn't do it, no matter how many times i tried. It just wouldn't bleed.
I've been wanting to hurt myself cause of all this, thinking that those cuts and slices would make the pain go away.
And yeah, i'll admit. I cried for you. I cried knowing that this pain will never heal no matter how many times it's happened.
Cause it just seemed to go on and on. A never ending battle of silence.
But despite all that, i can never hate you.
Cause like i said before, i still love you.
Always have, always will.
isly <3
Labels: happenings, hurt, life, rambles
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